Ren was a little surprised to hear the other’s apology but he wasn’t about to hold a grudge.
"I’m sorry as well. I shouldn’t have done the things that I did." Upon hearing the younger’s questions Ren stopped to think.
"No…" he started slowly. "I don’t get dizzy anymore but that may just come with experience and age. I still don’t want you using that power but if you absolutely refuse to listen to me, then at least don’t use it too much. As for rejecting it… I didn’t. I let myself get drunk off of that power and as a result, I hurt a lot of my friends. But someone saved me from that. But that’s a long time from today. I don’t want you to make the same mistakes I did. That’s why I keep telling you to stop using psyqualia."
PsyRen understood what the older one said, but something…something within him didn’t agree. “Didn’t Kai abandon us in the first place…? If anything, he hurt us first.” The child gritted his teeth, his aura starting to pulsate once more. That fight on the rooftop was one he would never forget, the time when Kai left him, being a sore loser that he was. “I got stronger and defeated him, right? So why wouldn’t he accept me?!” Despite being as angry as he was, PsyRen tried to keep his rage contained, and continued to speak, though in a much softer voice this time.
"I know using Psyqualia was never the right way to win…but I didn’t want to lose to anyone. I didn’t want to be weak and useless again… Wouldn’t Father want that too…?"
Ren nodded understandingly. “It may seem like that, but Kai was just doing what he thought was best at the time. He didn’t know what to do, but I’m positive he didn’t want to hurt us. If anything, he wanted to help us.” The redhead continued to listen to his younger self’s frustrations.
"He does accept you. He just doesn’t accept psyqualia. If you don’t use it, I’m sure the two of you can work things out. He wants you for you, not that power." At the mention of their father, the redhead grimaced.
"Father wanted us to be strong yes, but relying on power isn’t strength. It’s weakness. A good friend once told me that."
PsyRen stared at the older teen, before looking away quickly in slight frustration. “It’s nearly impossible for me to stop using psyqualia now, I’m sure you know that. Every time I play Vanguard it just… appears. Even Blaster Dark told me to use it as much as I could to help them win the war, and I couldn’t say no to him.”
The child started to twiddle his thumbs, unsure of what to do with his future. Should he really listen to his supposed older self? Plus… “…I hate to admit it, but I…I’m weak without psyqualia. I can’t play Vanguard well, I can’t defend against those stupid bullies, I can’t even protect myself against…Father. I….honestly don’t want to be weak again. It’s hard to live like some kind of dog again since I’ve tasted power and freedom ever since I got psyqualia and I… You know what I’m feeling, right…?”